Healing through astrological stories & themes

Oh Eclipse Season! 
October 28 was the final eclipse on the Scorpio/Taurus axis.  Every eclipse cycle has a story that brings an opportunity to break a cycle.  They are often powerful ending points coupled with soul-aligned new beginnings.  

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• The potency of healing through astrological themes & energies
• Why it is so important to understand astrological cycles in your life
• My experience of the Taurus/Scorpio Eclipse cycle since November 2021
• How Soul Activation Sessions can be profound catalysts to healing through your energetic soul themes

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Transcript

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Welcome to the untamed soul podcast. I am your host, Rachelle Embry, the founder of radiant vibes. I am a spiritual mentor and intuitive energetic alchemist for you, your animals and your soulful business. This is a podcast devoted to soul activation and embodied entrepreneurship. It is an exploration of inspirational humans who are leading the path to a new earth. Along the way, I will share intuitive insight and practical wisdom to inspire infinite potential in every area of your life. I am so excited to have you on this journey so together we can become untamed. Hello, community Radiant Souls., I'm so, so just really Excited to share about this podcast episode, because one of the things that I feel has really come up for me during this, closing out of this finality of this Scorpio Taurus axis on the eclipse cycles that we've been in for the last 18 months, um, I mean, really since November of 2021. And it's been such a reflection about. Our eclipse stories, and I've become fascinated about the stories of astrology and how they play out in our world, not just looking at the signs and where they're placed, but the actual stories of the themes that are really playing out because they're so, so So impactful and so healing and they are the embodiment of change. And so if you've been in my world long enough, you know that I am one that loves to precipitate change and always looking for how we can. Work with change with more ease and be in those cycles of uncertainty, which are pretty much 95 percent of the time we're in uncertainty. It's just this illusion that we have thinking that, Oh, I need to get to certainty. I'd need to get to certainty when in reality, like. That layer of certainty is just that minor decision that that moment that we have the decision of this is what I'm going to do, but the path forward is still so uncertain, right? We get very brief glimpses of certainty, and I feel so passionate about how much astrology helps us navigate all of these 95 percent of our lives that are really, truly uncertain. And it is. Their flows of site. It's always a cycle, always moving. Energy's always moving. It's like currents just constantly creating different layers of change, depending on how the planets in the sky are working with your planets, the way that they, your natal chart, which is exactly where the planets were all laid out at the time of your birth. And they, then your natal chart never moves. It is the same. But how the planets in the sky move and the way that personal planets move,, Mercury,, Mars, you have Saturn, you have the sun, you have the moon, you have the nodes and the way that those planets move, even down to the way the moon moves on a day to day basis really affects your personal energy and, how you show up because it all depends on where those are. Uh, transiting in the sky and really affecting your personal planets. And that's going to be a different story for everyone, but there's always collective stories. So a lot of the time you hear me talk about collective themes, but really diving deep into personal themes is so tremendously impactful. And it's something that I've used in my, my, my energy clearings in my business energetics and my coaching containers that are, you know, the spiritual. transformational coaching containers. I use it and everything I use it because I want to understand how to communicate and move energy with each individual I'm connecting with, how they receive information. The planet Mercury will let us know that how we can awaken gifts, Uranus, Mercury, where Pluto is in our charts tells us about. Deep, deep themes that were healed are here to transform and heal through. it talks about power struggles and I love to look at the chart as a whole intuitively to really understand points of power for each of us, points of desire for each of us, points of manifestation for each of us, and also the generational cycles that we are here to heal through and our personal cycles. When you start to understand this, it's so. Crazy how much can be revealed. And I don't like astrology for predictive other than to understand what the cycle is that we're going through, because I truly, truly believe that part of our human conditioning is to think that we are supposed to have certainty. And so when we get in the trap of like trying to predict our future, This is why I stopped doing any type of intuitive session that was very predictive. If people were coming to me and looking for predictive intuition or predictive psychic sessions, it was out of alignment. It felt very out of integrity for me. Yes, I can do it, but it's not my job to, to be the universe, to be God, to do that. Like we have to learn how to navigate the cycles and surrender control and be. Okay. In uncertainty and really learning to live in uncertainty, but how astrology is so powerful is that it helps us understand those cycles. It helps us realize like when we think we're absolutely losing our freaking mind that we're not, that this is a cycle. And just to give you some context, like for me over the last year, I've been in what's called a Saturn opposition. So basically where Saturn is in my chart natally and where Saturn is moving in the sky are directly opposite. And when you have oppositions, they're opposing energies. And then they're each in a separate individual house that is loaded with individual energies. So my natal Saturn is in the fifth house, which is. Creativity. It's,, sexual desire. It's children. It's,, your passion. It's your desire. It's, it's really like. How you're really showing up in the world as a creative, desirable, like individual. And also for me, it's a lot about leadership. Um, and so then where it's opposing is directly across like, and it's actually bringing up all this. It's this, this junk that's very heavy and it's basically asking me to reevaluate how I'm going to show up in the world as a leader. And it has brought in a lot of isolation into my world because it's basically forcing me to look at like, how do I want to be responsible and show up to the world? And in doing that, we're going to like clear space and your whole life so that you. Finally, get to a point of stillness where you are not occupied by the other. And you're basically going so within so that you can create your own self worth without anything outside of you validating that, or feeling like you need anything externally to support that where it's all gotta be resourced from within. And then you create your identity, right? The way that you're going to show up as that self led leader. And so that's like a really intense cycle. So it's just giving you one perspective, but had I not understood this, even though it's still difficult at times, I'm like, Oh my gosh, they're like the universe just removing so much out of my world. But yet at the same time, every time it removes something, there was something so. Much more exponentially expansive on the other side. And so it's having that trust that yes, that's happening. And yes, you're dealing with the pain of it and the emotion of it. And your own shadows are going to come up, you know, around all of that, your own fears around that, or how, how will this really support me? Is this really it at 45? And here I am, you know, and it. But then knowing and trusting that on the other side, there is so much more magic. There was so much more that was continuing to emerge that gave me that, that hope, right? That I could hop on. And now as that cycle is coming to an end, I've cut maybe like a week, but these cycles, these astrological cycles are always the most intense as it's leading up to it. And usually in the beginning. And then as we surrender to the cycle, you know, the pressure eases, you know, we're not fighting it. We're literally surrendered. Do your thing. I trust that this is all happening for reasons like I don't know, you know, but I'm going to trust this because I know that when I'm able to lead through uncertainty, that really amazing things do happen. Clarity comes, right? And so now that I'm getting to the end of it, it's like. All this like, Oh my God, it's the aha moments of now I see why all this has happened, but it's a, it's, it's really a grand. Uh, leap of cultivating true self trust within ourselves and also within the universe, our spirit team. You know, if you believe in God,, the divine, whatever your beliefs are, it's really cultivating that like radical trust and everything and including yourself. Right. And so. I have been really reflecting on these eclipse themes over this Taurus Scorpio axis because this last weekend on October 28th that was the final, final Chapter the final, it was like the finality of this, uh, Scorpio, um, Taurus eclipse story that's really been playing out collectively and individually since November of 2021. So we, we just went through the final one. And it was a full moon lunar eclipse and Taurus. And so who this eclipse cycle affected the most was really anybody who has planets in Scorpio or Taurus. And I'm not talking just your son. I'm talking to sun, moon rising. It could be your Venus. It could be your Saturn. It could be Pluto. It could be your nodes. It could be,\, Uranus, you know, it it's any planet in your chart that is in any point of these signs. This is why. Having somebody that understands this can go so deep and explain it in a way that's palatable for you, that's like practical for you. So you don't have to know all the things that I know, right? Like you just have to try to work with the story and the energetic themes that are playing out, which isn't so, so impactful. And so I sat with this because at this, this October 28th, the day before I had a situation happen that was. One of the themes I, I know I've been really working on from the very start of this cycle to now, because this has been in my second house, which is all about self love, self worth, value of myself. And it's opposing the eighth house, and the eighth house is. Other people's money, taxes, debts. It can be how you hold money, um, and how we really come into true self led leadership. One of the themes that I've had to move through that is Just like a soul theme for me. I I've come here to truly work through this is this theme of rejection and that when I'm rejected, I'm not worthy. I'm not lovable. And so I constantly have salt ways in my life to control anything that was going to bring in that fear of rejection or when I was rejected, how could I control it so that it never happened again? And it's impossible, right? I mean, rejection is just a part of life. But for me, this is like so, so triggering was, um, and as the cycles move through, there has been so many experiences that have brought that theme up again and again and again. And at first I was like, what is going on? I didn't understand it. Over the last six months, I really got so clear as we were coming into the last six months of this Scorpio Taurus portal of, of this eclipse cycle, and those two signs that it was like, Oh, I see what's happening here. As I learned to release and surrender and not take rejection personally, and understand that actually. It's actually not rejection, all it's the universe, it's my spirit team. It's all making space for new to come in. So anything that rejects me is actually not rejecting me. You know, it's, it's truly supporting me to create space for those things that are really, really aligned. And one of the things that I did was constantly chase relationships in particular, because I have a huge theme. I have loads of Lieber placements in my, my, I'm Lieber rising. Pluto conjunct my Ascendant, my North Node conjunct my Ascendant. So part of my destiny as the North Node there is to heal through relationships and, but it's not healing through giving to relationships as healing by nourishing myself first, creating healthy boundaries for not only myself, but with other people. Learning to speak my truth and communicate it from a place of diplomacy and fairness and really valuing myself and the ways that I show up into the world valuing my own leadership so that I can truly show up as the leader that like my chart is really asking me to be right. And so since, November 19th, 2021 is when this all started. And at that point. I had been dating very casually and I say casually, I'm just going to be upfront. It was casually. Maybe in my heart. I was like hoping something would work out, but I also knew that energetically I was not in a place to really align with that person that was going to like fully see me with that divine masculine that could hold me, that could see me. I was still bringing in men that. Some were great, like, okay, you know, but ultimately what it did was still brought in this energy of me chasing and also looking at their approval, seeking their approval for me, almost like healing that father wound. Right. So right then there was this big theme of healing the masculine in my world. How was I going to start relating to the masculine? And I remember this so clearly it was, it was right in that eclipse cycle. I actually was getting ready cause I just moved. So I was going through old journals and I said, I don't need this old stuff anymore. I didn't need the shit. I I'm just clearing out. I love to clear out the old. Right. Um, and so I found some old journals as I moved and there was a lot of writing around that time and what I was moving through and healing through. And, but I also found this most cutest, like, so my inner child coming out this note that was like, Sent out to, to my guys in the universe, and it was just like a dear universe. This is the man that I want to manifest. And y'all,, this thing was like four pages long, it is so detailed and it is so like crystal clear of everything that I wanted and everything I wanted to experience, not just like what I wanted,, how did I want to experience it? Experience that relationship. How did I want to feel in that relationship? How did I want that person to feel? What was I going to give? What were they going to give? What were we going to do together? How are we going to show up as our energy together? Right? This was like deep. Okay. Um, but you know, you've been in my world, you know, I just go deep. But it was really beautiful and cute and I, I found it and I just kind of smiled and I was like, man, this is a lot. Right. But shit, you found it. Right. Cause I have it. I have it with my, my fiance, Ryan, and it's amazing. And,, so that, that was the start of it. And that letter just completely reflected back that start of that cycle. And as that, that timeframe, started to unveil and I was, took like a journey into my body and really how I valued my body, which is second house stuff. Okay. Like the way that we reject our body, the way that we love our body, the way that we empower our body, how much of our identity is actually based on the look of our body. And so that started at that time. So it was still like lightly dating at that time. And, but I was really very much in my own process and just really cleaning up energy of these old, old cycles of men. And at the time I took, I actually took a course about showing up as an empowered feminine to date, um, so that we weren't showing up as the, As women, like insecure, codependent chasing, like showing up as like a dignified woman who deserves the best and doesn't settle and knows her value. Right. So I took this whole, whole course on it, which ends up now being so it's so, uh. Coincidental and synergistic to where I am now and the way that we show up in business, because that course was basically the precursor for it. And I love to help high achieving women move through this stuff, right? So that we're not only empowered in work, we're actually empowered in our relationships. We're empowered in our body. We're empowered in our, in our self leadership, right. As a high achieving person, like you're a leader. And like, so often we're giving so much to our work and our career and our purpose that we're not even nourishing ourselves. We have no idea what's going on. We're not connected to our body and we're not prioritizing ourselves. So like we're showing up for ourselves as last. And what I like to do is completely reverse engineer that and, and bring that back into like nourish us first and let's clean up all these energy leaks. That, you know, where we are so worried about the other, where we are in people pleasing, where we are trying to control or really control where we're stuck in perfectionistic, where we're afraid of change, where we can't be in uncertainty, you know, all of those things. So that, that, that course, it was actually around four months long and it literally shaped my life. Um, I, it literally shaped my life and the way that I show up and do things. I didn't know it at the time though. And so as I kept moving in, then we had the next, next eclipse season in April 30th of 2022, the week before I went on a trip with a really amazing girlfriend to, uh, Scottsdale Flagstaff to visit a client who was having a huge birthday party for her husband, who I was also at her, her wedding several years ago. So that was like super amazing just to be connected that way. And we just had the most amazing time and just connecting as women and, and just kind of healing and connecting with the earth. And I came back and I just got so clear, like I'm ready to date again, but I'm so pissed off about it because I didn't want to get on online dating. I was just like, you know, F this I'm done. But I, I remember coming home. I sat at my kitchen table. I had a glass of wine and I got on an app that I never used called Bumble. Okay. And so I don't know if you're familiar with it. I never used it before, but I hopped on and I decided, okay, if you're going to do this, you're going to have fun and you're going to be serious. You're going to show up. You're going to, you know what you want. You're not settling. You're not doing casual. You're not letting these men just dictate the show. It's like, no, this is Ray show kind of thing. And I was so clear. And so he did, I had the. Best time dating. I, so many amazing men came into my life. It was awesome. And as like, you know, six, eight weeks goes through, there was a, uh, there was a couple that were, it was really clear. They stood out. And, um, one of them was, is my fiance now. And so it was like, how am I going to do this? But as it, as it was, one of them ended up moving out of state. And then the other was, it just, you could tell there was just like, I think some attachments to his past and his ex and, um, his ex wife and things. And so I decided, I just felt so like intuitively I felt very safe with Ryan. I just felt, I need to give this a really good chance. I really need to take this to me. It felt risky to do this really risky. Right. So I had to lean in and trust. And so I did. And the crazy thing is, is. Ryan was like, amazing. He's like, he's just everything that we, we had every conversation that was so healthy and creating this connection to make sure that at this point in our lives, he was 51, um, that we were going to be so on the same path that neither one, both of us have been through so much. Shit, very similar things. So we really understood where the other one was coming from. And we just, we were at a point where like, yeah, it'd be awesome to find that person. That would be like the icing on the cake, but we also had done so much inner work that we knew that we were going to be okay with or without it. So there was no point in settling. Right. So we'd really raw conversations, very honest to get so clear that, okay, this is how it's going to go. And so as, as life goes, it was about when shortly after, you know, I made the decision to really go forward with Ryan, I found out my dad was really sick. He had a fall and that was right before his 70th birthday. And I was supposed to take him to Nashville for 70th and, um, really healthy. And he fell and he really hurt himself, but all these other health things started coming up out of it. And. Ultimately, he ended up dying September 5th of 2022. So like, as I meet this really awesome masculine, here goes the masculine of my father that leaves what's interesting about this is that there was a lot of rejection. I had to work through with the dynamic of my father. He was a good guy. You, if you guys have listened to the podcast, you've heard some of the story a little bit. But he was a very high functioning alcoholic. And so, you know, anybody that's grown up with alcoholism in their family, you know, that they can only be as supportive as they can emotionally. They just cannot be there. So there was a lot of emotional unavailability. I didn't really know how to interact with the masculine. Right. And here comes this like Scorpio cancer, dude, Ryan, with this big hearted Leo moon. Who's just like. Hey, I can hold you. I see this. I see the depth that you have and really taught me to get comfortable with emotions, expression, emotional conflict, how to move through that. Because it was something that was so foreign to me yet. I studied it because I had to learn it, which is why I can teach about it because I literally had to learn it. Right. Um, and I always feel like the things that we have to learn are, are like, Power centers, like if whatever we have to learn through in this lifetime becomes like something that we're really able to help other people through because we had to learn it, right? It wasn't natural for us. So we don't, we know the process of how to get there. And so that was like, you know, this big exit. Right. And as this eclipse, the next eclipse hit October 25th of 2022, um, here, Ryan and I are really getting close. I'd been to my dad's celebration of life. Um, there. It was becoming apparent that there were several feminine relationships in my life that were starting to really take a new shape. Um, my step mom literally cut my sisters and I off. So that was one. And eclipse cycles bring out big, their endings. And when there's a cutoff or a release and a clip cycle, it's permanent. It's, Almost always permanent. It's very hard to gain that energy back. Um, and it's like the saying is they're eclipsed out, you know, and they're eclipsed out for a reason. So whatever is being taken from us, it might appear as though it's been taken from us. It's actually big gifts in that. And You know, it, it felt really weird, but so much of it was around my dad's estate. It was around money and how she just showed up. And it was like all these things that we really thought that she was, but then we tried to convince ourselves through time that she wasn't became very apparent. And she really was this way, you know? And so it was like, okay, that's done. Now we get to move on. No more having to deal with this, like. The masculine wounding. I finally get to heal that once and for all and really, really cultivate the safety with masculine energy. And then as Maria cut off, it was really honestly a big relief because she was kind of like a little toxic. It was hard to be around. So it was like, yay, another toxic female. Yes. Let's bring in the healthy. Right. Um, and then friendship started moving around and people that I was really close with from the time that I moved down Arkansas. So for a couple of years. They just started fading out. And by November 8th, as those things were fading out, which became the next part of this eclipse cycle, November 8th of 2022, Ryan and I made like a full blown commitment that we were like, so like we were gone for it. We were super serious. To the point, and you guys are going to laugh, we changed our Facebook status. We were away on a weekend trip. And that just became so apparent to both of us that how important these last six months had really been. I mean, he'd been through with me through the most, one of the most difficult times of my life, you know, losing my father, watching my father die, watching his body fade away to alcoholism and liver failure, and watching every part of him just pass away. Right. And Ryan witnessed that at the very beginning. And so he saw me so vulnerable. He saw all the family dynamics. He saw everything. Right. And he was just like, I see you. It's great. I love all of it. There's not a single thing I would change, you know, which was really, really amazing. So let's fast forward. Next eclipse cycle comes in April, 20, 2023. During this time from November to April, more and more things, nothing was really getting sorted out. You know, with my dad's estate, um, there was. A lot moving around within Radiant Vibes, where I was just getting really clear that certain paths that I was moving in just weren't aligned for me. And as that eclipse hit, there, there was a new theme. It became Aries. There was a new moon in Aries on that April 20th. 2023. So there was a new theme because Aries and Libra works with the relationship with the other and the relationship with the self and Ryan and I got engaged. So it like, and Aries is in my seventh house of relationships of significant one to one relationships, whether it's business collaborations, one to one and your personal relationships, one to one and friendship, any one to one relationship. Very, very, very powerful. So that new moon happened in my seventh house of those one to one. Further cementing that eclipse cycle saying, here's the change now. Guess what? You're engaged. Uh, and y'all, I've wanted this for so long. And, but I was chasing it and all the wrong places. And I finally stopped chasing. And I finally found somebody that it was reciprocal. There was no chasing. It was just like a total, total, um, Just him and I in this together. Right. And so at that point there, that what came up, so here's this beautiful, amazing relationship. And then several of my close girlfriends. Like nobody reached out and it was crazy because like I reached out everything. Okay. Nobody reached out. And it was like, Oh my God, like here I get engaged into how come these women can't be happy for me. And so from that one, it really, and I just basically cut it out. I said, you know what, anybody that is just like not here for all of it. I'm so flipping done. And I started to get really pessimistic about the feminine because I've been through so much. So much feminine rejection and relationship wounding in my life that basically stems back from my mother. But it's really through, as I've worked with my astrology, it's generational. And here I'm the breaker. I'm like the curse breaker, right? When you show up for this work, you are the one that is breaking the cycle. You're the cycle breaker here. And so it's very liberating, even though it's. A challenging, not everybody's up for this. Not everybody wants to go through this and learn all about this and, and figure out how they can evolve to their, their most highest potential self in this lifetime. Right. And from the spiritual journey on the spiritual path. So when you like are come here as a soul being to nominate yourself, where there's like, you, you do nominate yourself through a very deep transformational process. And so here we go. And here's this like clearing out of the feminine in my world. And then you, you remember me talking to the beginning. I also had the Saturn opposition. This cycle was also like two weeks later, May 5th, completely conjunct Uranus in my chart, my natal Uranus, Uranus creates change, big changes, y'all huge changes. So that was, A big finale around part of my dad's estate. He never had a will. That was a big mess. We're still having to, you know, clear out all this stuff. And what happened with that is there was a lot of deep spiritual healing between my father and I. It was very spiritual. Um, because they didn't get to have that in this lifetime. You know, when he died, he, that was like the last opportunity that I ever had for him to truly see me and value me for who I was and what I was not for what I did for me. And so part of my healing of the masculine was to do that for myself, to honor that inner child that was. Never got to be seen by her parents. It was all about what she did. And I have a Capricorn moon, another astrological theme that is so Capricorn moon. Like we come in here, it's going to be, you know, challenging relationship with fatherly. Mine is in the fourth house of the mother. So challenging relationship with the mother. So you can get how this whole astrology just opens up. And it's not just the eclipse stories, but it's like, what all is being impacted in here. So during that time, um, at that point, it was like, holy shit, Ryan, we got to start trying to find a house. We got to combine our lives. We realized neither one of our personal houses were going to actually work. So we went on this whole, like, journey of finding a house, which we, we are now anchored in this. So at the end of this whole cycle, here we go. We're anchored in to our new house. So you can see how that goes. Um, and so really that going back to May 5th of 2023, April 20, 2023 engaged May 5th, 2023. Having those friends move through my world and leave my world. And then it also became really clear where I was working with certain people that really weren't aligned with me where I was trying to collaborate with people that really weren't aligned with me, where I was giving away my leadership or is giving away my power. I was not giving myself enough. Worthiness to really align with the people that were going to be reciprocal. So I kept settling not for the men in my life, but for the relationship. So you can see all the way back in that November 19th, 2021, I took that course that was all about, you know, really showing up with this, this empowered feminine and not selling, well, here's this theme that now I'm settling in the feminine of my life, right. With the feminine energies of my life with my intuitive abilities. I didn't even like, I started to feel super. Like scared to talk about all of the things that I was so good at with how intuitive I was, how, um, good with money. I was right. And as I healed the masculine, the most profound thing started to happen because masculine is the way that we show up with our money, not wealth money. And as I healed that masculine is starting to hold more money. I started creating more money. Just for being me, right? Like healing that just became so healing in every other area of my life and having this masculine energy in my life, Ryan, who just truly saw me that I was no longer being rejected. I was no longer chasing this. I was fully accepted in every part, but I had to get there myself in that energy before I could ever align with somebody that could do that for me. I had to know what my needs were. I had to know what I needed in this relationship. I had to understand it so divinely. And so that is what I'm healing now with the feminine. And as this cycle, this whole Taurus Scorpio cycle has, has Come to its end. And while Ryan and I were deep in the house looking, it was just like, you know, more and more re restructuring of those feminine friendships. Um, even down to Friday, the day before this October 28th finality, this, this whole ending of the cycle, there was just another reminder of where are you? It was like the universe saying to me, are you really done with this? BS Ray, are you going to level up? And it was like, level up in the sense of know what you are capable of, know the power you hold, know the impact you've created, know and trust yourself and the impact that you will create and truly showing up as the leader. And over this last like month, I've really. Been so convicted into like where I'm moving, which is truly helping women, very high achieving women show up as their sovereign leaders and truly the empowered feminine, which is not in the way of feminine activism. Y'all it's the energy. It's the energy of embodying who you are through like understanding your energetics and astrology. I've been diving into this whole rabbit hole of human design as well. And it's truly through like understanding how, how Amazing. We are understanding our needs, knowing that our needs are part of our desires, that our desires are like the key of our soul transmitted through us that are like the key to creating the life that we truly want in this world and like owning those desires and nourishing ourselves and like really is showing up as that sovereign leader, as the feminine, as that divine feminine, that we are, we are meant to be. And as I got like really clear on that and the situation shows up on Friday, it was like, no, I'm done. I am no longer giving my power away to this rejection wound to the feminine. I healed it through the masculine. I can heal it through the feminine. And one of the energies I've been working through through astrology is black Lilith, which is that feminine, the dark feminine. It's a shadow feminine, but it's like that sacred rage and like really honoring and something that I'd never truly done, to such a deep, deep, Layer and level was let out that sacred rage and I had this started journaling this whole thing about the energies with my father, the energy with my stepmother, the energy with my mother, which I really healed through my mother, but the energy of that feminine, that like rejection of like, how much more can I take from the feminine in my world, you know, and I was just, I just purged it all and it was just like F this F that and I was like crying like, oh my gosh, it was just like, But old me would have felt so out of control knew me knew that that was the path to liberation. I knew that that was going to liberate me. And ever since that moment, I've been so convicted. And as I said, no to this, this last layer of rejection, I'm not even Going into this bullshit. I'm just not even going there. It was just like all my Aquarius energy finally said, cutting off the air supply to that, because that's what we Aquarians do when we are done, we're done. You know, it takes a lot to get us there, but when we're done, we're done. And so that it just cut off the air supply to that situation. And within hours, y'all hours, I hop on the phone with a dear friend. We're actually voice texting and she starts sharing with me some things in her personal life and we send over these long little voice memos and she starts saying how she really wants to connect with me on a personal level as friends and really talk about, you know, from this being a CEO. A feminine CEO. We've both been in business for a long time. And for those of you that are in your own business, like, you know, it can be really hard. And truth is that only 10 percent of people that embark on this journey of spiritual entrepreneurship or the online entrepreneurship or entrepreneur coaching and all of that. Like only any or any entrepreneurial journey, in fact, for that only 10 percent even get to six figures and even less make it for the long haul. And I've been doing this for seven years. And even before that I had business for my whole lifetime. So it's, I've always done this. I've always been a little leader, you know, doing this, but it was, and it was my owning that. It was, it was like, I had to own what I've created and what I've achieved and really allow the universe to clear out what was not in alignment with where I'm going, because the universe knows so much more. And sometimes we think it has a wicked sense of humor, but it's not if flipping knows, like it knows what is in our best interest. It knows that removing certain people has to be done so that we can heal through those wounds that are being triggered by those. Those people so that we can grow and evolve and so that we can be in that ultimate place of alignment so that it can deliver to us what it is here to give to us. And that is part of our soul's evolution. Right. And so it was so. Cool to see that and get that voice memo. And here she's, you know, we, we've been working together for ages. She actually, um, gets sessions from me. We've known each other through various different business groups. And then as we started speaking, it was just like very apparent that there was more collaboration to be done. And it was so healing because she actually even said, like, there was a certain situation that we were talking about and she chose our friendship over that. And. I get chills as I say that because she said, no matter what, this friendship takes priority. This takes priority. And to have a feminine, a female, a very, very, very strong leadership female, like Very calibrated, right? Lean into me and say that to me so that I didn't have to be guarded, that I could soften to her, that I could really share with her my personal experience, that I didn't fear I was going to be judged, that I knew I was going to be seen, that she wasn't going to reject me. And she was going to see that situation through was like the healing that I really needed at the end of end of this cycle. And so. You can see how all of this has just really played out. And from starting that course and like back in November 19th, 2021, and maybe you guys, you know, I know most of you listening to this are not going to be this involved in this, but. This is what I like to go through with people and there's a reason why I'm sharing this with you because during this process, it was so painful. You can see I lost my father. I lost friends. I'm also through the, this, the second house, like I've gained weight. I've had to get really comfortable with my body in new ways. I, I realized how much I was. Basing my own attraction, my own worth, the reason why people even worked with me on my body image, always being skinny, you know, and, and not that I'm obese by any means, but I've gained like 20 pounds. So I've had to wrap myself around this new body image. My hormones are changing. It's all these things like happening to me that I've really had to also deal with that, you know, for some of you, you're not moving through those wounds around the body, but for me, I am. So that was a lot for me to process. And it was really coming down to this radical self love, not just proclaiming it. Not saying it embodying true self love, no matter what is exiting your world, knowing that this is not a rejection to you, that this is happening for you. It's not rejecting you. This is no longer this wound operating. And so like getting out of that space, there's such a liberation in that. And I share this with you because this is what I do in my soul activated sessions. And it's not that you need to know all of this, but it's like really working through these patterns and understanding these. Themes in your life that you're here to work through. It's like, it is, it is life changing. It truly is liberating. It is life changing. It is so healing. And especially the reason why I love to work with self led soul led, very, you know, high achieving individuals, because. I get you. Like I get it so much. And, and most of the women that come into my world, I do work with men. Y'all I do, but I it's most of the women that come into my world, they are very high achieving people. Most of them are high achieving entrepreneurs or in their, in their careers, they have high level positions. And there are, the whole thing is about healing that feminine within us so that we're not. Outsourcing all of our energy and we're starting to become resource. And when we do that, you know, we literally can clear anxiety. We can clear depression. We can clear health issues. We can clear the self affliction, that there's something of shame, that where there's something inherently wrong with me because I'm being rejected by these other things, we learn how to. Heal through control issues and, and release. We learned how to connect with our feelings and our emotions because most really high achieving women are like, we don't, that's a foreign concept. Connecting with our body is a foreign concept. We don't even know what it's like. Oh yeah. I connect with my body. I do yoga. Okay. Well, what are you doing when you're not in a group of people? How are you getting into your body? How are you grounding? How do you even know what needs you, what your needs are? In your world, in your life, like you, your intuition is so deactivated, right? When we're coming up from this place of control that so many high achieving women are. And that's what I love to do in the soul activated. And I'm also coming up with some new programs that are going to be all about really power through desire, um, and, and moving through these feminine energetics and healing the masculine in our life, not from, you know, what is trendy spiritually spoken about. I'm talking about really, truly healing the masculine and the feminine in our world, because we all have both of those energies and they've got to be balanced. And more often than not, what happens is so many. Of the feminine in the world that are really high achieving. They're showing up with a very masculine energy. They don't know how to soften with their life. They don't know how to create space and openness to nourish themselves, to soften, to really create the manifestations that they want by your desire. Most don't even know what desire is. They're afraid to even feel deeply. They're afraid there's so much, you know? And so it's like they show up and they're always hiding. I don't want to be too much. I don't want to be too this. I don't want to be too passionate. I don't want to be too much of anything. So I'm going to like silence. And not say anything and not share actually what I want need or who I am and they mask themselves. And so if this is any of this work appeals to you, I really, I'm going to have the link in the podcast notes down below register. I have very limited sessions around this, um, because it does take a good amount of time to really study these themes in anybody's particular chart. And I'm also going to have a wait list for a upcoming group program called power by desire. That is going to be anchoring all of these concepts and where we're going to be diving into different, certain aspects, not the whole chart, but certain aspects that are really illuminating of this desire, right? Which I call the path to manifestation. It is the path to healing is really, truly the path of feminine embodiment and leadership. And that's what this container is going to be about. And it is going to be very limited. I'm, I'm, I'm not sure how much I'm going to cap it out, but I don't think more than like 10 people, because I want it to be a sisterhood. I want it to be intimate. I want everybody to feel safe and sharing and being vulnerable because it's another thing that are, are the women in this collective need is we need to feel safe. Save and show up and be vulnerable and share every single thing that we're moving through without fear of judgment, because the sisterhood in this world has rejected and judged so much that like, we don't even know how to do that. We don't even know how to trust in the feminine. And that's what I want to bring back is like first trust in ourselves, trust in the feminine and really create a container that is so aligned and bringing this sovereign leadership around our desire and being really activated in that, that feminine energy. But also not like pushing away the masculine, warming it, welcoming it, trusting it, loving it, and know that masculine energy really supports us. So I will put the link for soul activation. Those are one to one. They're about 60 minutes long, um, really super powerful. Most people are booking like several in a row because of just like the way that the themes really carry out and there's only so much that our mind can really like process and I will have the wait list for power but desire if you are interested. Um, yeah. And I hope this brought some light. I know this might've been a little bit more information, but I wanted to share just what I've learned and how much I truly believe that this work is so, this is like. a huge missing component to spiritual healing, to spiritual transformation. And it's really what has like completely changed and shifted my life. And every time I go through these cycles throughout my life, this isn't, I'm sharing with you this most recent one, but like, this is All that, like every time I've moved through these cycles, it has created just another layer of deeply impactful healing, because I was willing to go deep and look at the shadows and really honor who I was and who I'm here to be. And that's what the energetics of astrology can really pour into. It's like the wisdom of your soul and like giving you this illumination of your purpose, which is to basically show up as. Freaking unapologetically as you can be as you so love you guys and thank you for listening and I look forward to seeing you soon. Bye. Hey, untamed listeners, I am so appreciative that you took time out of your day to spend with me. I hope you enjoyed this podcast as much as I did, and I would love your support for this podcast. I would be so appreciative of a positive review. This helps promote the podcast. 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