Clearing karma/motherwound/sisterwound with Psychic Surgeon, Alexandria Kenyon

Alexandria is a modern-day witch in every sense of the word. She has devoted much of her life to healing & clearing the motherwound, and sisterwound and clearing energetic imprints of both from our bodies. 

Alex and I dive into the depths of how patriarchy cast out true sisterhood and how we are all reclaiming this– moving from comparison, competition and not belonging. 

We talk about owning all of who we are, resurrecting your own inner mother, healing our own sisterhood wounds, releasing jealousy, envy and returning home to our sisters. 

Alexandria is a Professional Clairvoyant Energy Healer, Transformational Breathwork Guide, and Embodied Feminine Awakening Teacher. Her work centers on the feminine awakening journey within. In nervous system-informed quantum energy space, she guides clients to release auric blockages, unlock their creative gifts, and embrace their authentic feminine embodiment with audacity.

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Welcome to the untamed soul podcast. I am your host, Rachelle Embry, the founder of radiant vibes. I am a spiritual mentor and intuitive energetic alchemist for you, your animals and your soulful business. This is a podcast devoted to soul activation and embodied entrepreneurship. It is an exploration of inspirational humans who are leading the path to a new earth. Along the way, I will share intuitive insight and practical wisdom to inspire infinite potential in every area of your life. I am so excited to have you on this journey, so together, we can become untamed. Hello everybody. I am here with a just amazing, just badass, super scorpionic woman, Alexandria Kenyon. And I came across her a couple months ago at this point, probably earlier this year through a mutual friend, Vika Bradford, and you were on her podcast and I heard you and her going. And I thought, God, I gotta have a healing from this woman because she is going to go deep and I love that depth. And I just knew there was just generational and just a lot of karmic bullshit that just had to like come off of me. And I'm like, I, you know, and it's like, I know it's there, but I can't see it. And I feel for me. Personally, I've had a lot of healings. I've been with a lot of different practitioners, though choosy, and they've been wonderful and beautiful. But I really like to feel when I walk away from a healing or I'm in that, that, you know, yeah, maybe some wounds were opened up. Maybe some things were cracked open so that I can actually release them and know that they're there and honor them and be like, okay, let's like move through this. But As we were talking beforehand, I also have Pluto on my ascendant. So like, I am like constantly craving that like transformative, you know, process and sort of this like death and rebirth, regenerate, create new identity, go and like constantly doing this whole like circling around. So you were perfect in that. I want you to just tell a little bit about yourself and who you are and your sun, moon and rising. If you know your human design, I'd love to share it just for like, Um, yeah, so that everybody can hear your beautiful voice. Oh my gosh. Well, hello. Okay. As you were like introducing me, I felt this emotion come up from, from my chest of like, Oh my God, she sees me. So thank you. Thank you so much. I got like emotional. Oh, good. Alexandria. I am an energy here. Healer. Um, I refer to myself as a psychic surgeon, which we can talk more about, but essentially I. Your aura, um, get into flow. A lot of people have stuck blockages in their aura and what is stuckness in the aura? Pain. So we clear that, we move that, the aura can recalibrate, and we get a nice, nice flow, and then you feel good. Ah, so simple, but Um, I, my specialties are working with karma, generational pain, and the mother wound. I love that. The witch wound, the mother wound, and the sister wound to me are the trendy of like my healing sector here. Um, yeah, I'm professionally trained. I've been in clairvoyant spaces, uh, professionally for about four years now. And, Yeah, I, I love to help support women going really, really, really deep. Um, I, I noticed when I was in my clairvoyant training programs, nobody wanted to go deep with me and it was like, really like alienating. Um, I have a Scorpio moon, um, and Placidus in the eighth house and whole signs in the ninth. So it's double, double, double Hades situation going on here. Uh, I am Pisces. So that Pisces new moon, we just had, um, I'm just like, wait, what's my son's sign? I am a Leo son. Yeah, I know. In there. I was so surprised to see that when I pulled up your chart. Really? You know, well, my Leo son is in the sixth house and I'm a progressed Virgo. So I, I really do feel, um, in my childhood and in my past iterations of self, very, very Leo. Now I'm, I'm really stepping into my Virgo era. Yeah. Yeah, that's so interesting because I totally kind of relate to that with, I have a lot of Aquarius, but it's in the Leo house and I repelled Leo. And now I'm like, Oh, I need to be around more Leo. And it's the people that come into my world have like really high Leo energies or like you, a Leo sign. I would have never known. It's totally there. I was like, Oh, that's interesting. And I generally read Placidus. So like, I have your chart up here and, um, I feel so much resonance and have been speaking and sharing so much with my community and people, we have a temple membership, which is all about this. And we've been diving into that mother wound, the sister wound, all of it, which is the whole point of creating the temple, which is it's like a sacred sisterhood space. And. You take it to another level though, which is really cool. You're like gently opening up people to it and Vika was on a podcast, which I will reference below for those of you that want to catch it, where she just totally dived into the, into that Hades moon and really explained it and what was behind it. But I feel like with you, with all of your Scorpio energy there in that moon is like, Ooh, it's like really when I am in your energy, I'm like, Oh yeah, she's deep. And I feel like that's probably why a lot of people couldn't really meet you there because it takes a certain kind of person. And I feel the same way for me. It's like, I've had a really hard time with any healers really meeting me at the depth that I want to go because I feel Either they don't know, or it's not opened up in them yet, or it's intimidating, but they don't know why, because with like Pluto on the Ascendant or a Scorpio moon frequency, you either attract or you repel. I don't know if you've noticed that, but I mean, it's like I'm also a manifester in human design, so I am deeply, uh, repelling in a lot of ways. Um, I also, you know, attract and, and, and repel. I am magnetic to the souls who, you know, want to go deep. Um, but that was my core wound as a child, right? I didn't have friends in a way that I wanted to have friends. Yeah. Um, but yeah, that, that Scorpio moon is, uh, I like to go to the core wound because I'm like, what are we doing? If not, yeah, like let's go to the bone, you know, it's going to hurt for a second. It's going to be like having surgery, you're going to recover from it and it's going to be okay. Yeah. Yeah. Um, Yeah. I never felt like it hurt though, and I'm in your sessions. The thing that I love about it, and I want to talk about your training because I feel like it's really unique. And I personally don't know anything about it other than what you told, because when I find somebody, I don't, I never went to your website. I never did anything except when I did a second booking, I just was like, okay, she's on Vika's podcast. I love her. I love this energy. I trust Vika. I love that. Yeah. I'm going in, you know, so I don't really, I'm not one to like sit around and kind of like, should I, should I, it's just like, Oh, I feel that in my body. I need to be there with this woman. So I want to definitely hear more about your, your, the psychic training and the psychic surgery aspect of it, because I feel like that's gonna, yeah, give people just a different take on energy work, your type of energy work. Right. Because energy work is so broad. It's like energy work. We have freaky, we have all different kinds of energy healing, and they're all beautiful. They're all beautiful. Um, I love that you just said that too, because in the same way, when it comes to, when I know a frequency, I'm like mine. Got to go there. I'm so clear. Um, and so many women fight that, you know? They're like, uh, because, because the resistance, when you book a session with someone like me, or someone like you, there's going to be resistance because part of you wants to stay in the dimension you're operating at. I feel resistance pretty much every time I have an energy healing session. I'm like, I really want to do this, but sometimes it's just like a little like, um, yeah. So let's talk about energy healing and my background. Um, you know, having the Hades moon, of course, my awakening was initiated by my mother's death. I just kind of want to laugh about it because it's. It's so there in my chart. It's so there. And I'm just like, what? Like, really? Of course. When, how long has she been passed? She has been passed almost, I would say five and a half years now. So just this massive, um, mediumship initiation. And I was like, what the? And it was wild because I was not in my body, you know, so many of us. Because we've experienced so much childhood adversity, pain, have separated from ourselves and, you know, I was outside of my body. Looking in, right? I didn't want to occupy this space. Um, and so I had trained with a medium. I had started a mediumship business. I, my background is in photography. I had this amazing, um, photography company and it was so great. And I was extremely burnt out. My mom dies. I'm like, fuck everything. I need to get my shit together. So I go on this like healing journey. I meet a mediumship mentor. She trains me and then I'm like, okay, I'm, I'm good. Right. Oh, I'll just white light, protect myself. Yeah, like literally no, the, uh, I had a very, very intense, um, beginning of my Saturn return. Uh, actually really it was my, my moon, my lunar return. Um, A moment, right? The body where I had a whole nervous system collapse, and I could only understand it at that point on the physical level, but what was actually happening on the energetic level is I was getting psychically attacked really hard, pretty much down to the, to the core wounds. And so when things psychic attack you, They hit your pain. And so I was like, fuck, I didn't know this at the time. So I was very, very not well for a few months. And I realized I needed to cultivate more grounding and more tools in order to really bring my higher self into my body. So I met, um, A mentor and she stumbled upon my path. She had a breathwork class. I was so fucking resistant I don't think I'm not going to this class. My best friend who is also an energy healer and a psychic and a scorpio moon She kept throwing shit at me. I'm such a manifestor. I'm like, I don't wanna you're not initiating me, you know And I finally was like, okay okay, i'll go to the class and I went to the class and Um, it was so grounded that I could I felt safe enough to just process You Like everything that had happened in that one breathwork class, um, the power of music, the power of breath. I'd also teach breathwork. Transformational, right? It's transformational. And from there, I started having one off sessions with her. And then I came into a year container with her. And we worked past lives of, you know, what had happened is, you know, I had been psychic attacked on a past life where I had spent a lot of time in psychiatric hospitals and past lives. So it was like, you're crazy pictures and you're mental and you're going to be institutionalized. And I was like, what? I was just drowning and dirty that I couldn't, I didn't know how to handle it. So we cleared all that took about a year. And then I, you know, when I meet someone, I'm always like, you know, we could work together forever or like I could get the training you've got. Cause I want to, I'm very much in this life, Sagittarius energy. I want to experience it. Like I want to, I want to have the experience. Um, and so She referred me to her training program. The training program is clairvoyance. It's all about your sixth chakra. What people don't understand is clairvoyant training is about getting your ass into your body. Most women listening to this probably have some level of trans ability to channel things. And oftentimes that can take us. just floating a little bit above the body because that energy is just a little bit higher than the actual body's frequency. And I didn't know this at the time. I was just trotting along going to clairvoyant training. Clairvoyant training was like doing 50 years of therapy in one year. Wow. I have never in my life had to address my shit. I couldn't work during it. I decided to go, you know, we all have our different manifestations. I'm a Scorpio moon. I had to go all the way deep to that core shit. Um, and it was fascinating what manifested, um, during that time. Uh, you know, I was going through a divorce during that time. I lost my best friend during that time. Um, and, uh, I had to heal a shit ton of karma with all these men. It was horrible. Um, but here I am, I learned how to ground and be in my body and see energy, um, instead of becoming it. Yeah. Yeah. And so that said, psychic surgery, clairvoyant, Clairvoyant work is about the aura. So we're reading layers of your aura. And what we're doing is we're just isolating the parts that aren't yours, reading that energy and seeing if you're ready to release it. Um, there's multiple different parts. I use the Akashic records. I use master psychic surgeon surgeons to come in. There's lots of different aspects, but it's very grounded. And I think that's the difference between my work I've had a lot of energy healings because I did have a little phase where I was like, I need to, everyone heal me. Um, before I met my own mentor who was trained in this modality, I had not met, um, An energy healer who was neutral enough or grounded enough to help me move some of that deeper pain um And so that's why I wanted to study this particular modality. It's a modality um, really channeled by lewis botswick who uh, actually was best friends with the guy who Started scientology and then they stopped being friends. Really interesting. Scientology has very similar Energy to these energy tools Which is really interesting. I didn't know that till after I said, is this a cold? Like, what are we doing? That is so cool because for, well, for one, I. I mean, I'm psychic. I was just born psychic. I call it more intuitive, but I was born and then obviously like the experiences that I came here to experience only deep into that heightened sensitivity because of childhood trauma, where you're just, you know, you are like really alert to people, their energy, their actions. I had to dismantle that so that my nervous system wasn't. Like completely overloaded and I could hold the space that I wanted to for the people for the animals. I mean, to work with end of life and mediumship, I do it all. I just, I'm never gonna like announce myself as a medium or anything, but your mother's energy is all around you. FYI. Like as soon as you said it, Part of my life's work is literally getting her out. Um, love her, but her energy in my space Really limits my, my This incarnation. So that's why I work with the mother room because so many, I was very enmeshed with her. So yes. Hello, Lori. We'll say hello to your spirit. Now, please leave this space. As you said that I was actually grounding my, my feminine space. I was like, Hmm, something feels weird. Yeah, no, I, I could just feel her around right away, but yeah. It's so interesting how like from. It was a different experience for me. And it sounds like what you took in the clairvoyant teaching was very different than what a lot of people teach, which actually doesn't really resonate for me. Like even when I've taught animal communication and I'm sitting here going, it's not just telepathy. It's not just this, there's so much more that is an energetic exchange. Um, So this is really interesting to me because it sounds like this just went really deep versus and, and I don't feel that because I, I actually work with a lot of mediums that come for clearings and stuff. And even with animals, and it's like, you can feel the density, you can feel the heaviness that even the animals are taking on with their humans of this, like clearing, you know, and I don't feel that there's enough. Guidance around truly, and I don't like the word protecting your energy, but I love the word grounding into your body because that is such a big, even for myself, it's like, I have to consciously, you know, be like, I was before we did this, I was at a doctor's, I was getting some different test results. I was getting this. And I felt like really like, Oh, I'm getting answers. Yeah. Yay. And then I come home and I'm like, Oh, I'm just depleted. You know, I need to eat. I, what do I need? I need to eat. I need to go for a walk with my dogs. I need to ground. I need to open up my heart to be in Alexandra's space to receive for her to receive and this to be, you know, so I'm, I'm consciously aware of this, but that took years and it's, What you're talking about and the teaching of it just feels so much like I feel, uh, I don't want to say a better, but yeah, like a, a much more realistic if you want to get in the space. Um, I think doing something and really doing more in depth training is so much more beneficial because you'll just crash. You'll crash and burn. Yeah. I want to share something that, um, was really pivotal for me because ultimately I'm a trans medium. I channel shit. That's, that's, I was born with that. Yeah. That's why sometimes I can be an angry little gremlin. Like I'm channeling shit. So. You know just to give a background and this is not to say because I know that this lights up a lot of people's Like intellectual degree pictures. I have to have this accolade or this shit It's really the process of going through the initiation and being held in it versus not. Mm hmm You know what you said about people's animals taking on So that's kind of what I'm doing. But, um, Something that came up for me. Is I used to be, I used to love watching Sylvia Brown or like, um, Tyler Henry's a very popular medium now. And I watch him now and I read his energy while he channels, he is bringing the people into his physical body. Do you know how bad that is for your body? Yeah. You need to be able to have yourself. Um, and then, and then energies can respond to you outside of your space, but how you do that is through getting the process of seniority. And that's what takes time. Um, you mean through the seniority over the, the spirit realm, seniority over the spirit realm, but also seniority over your space. Can you stay in your body when a spirit is there? throwing pain at you. Can you stay here when this is coming at you? And that takes time. So to explain that, Clairvoyant training is a year. Advanced training is a year. Transmediumship training is five. Wow. Yeah. It takes a long time to be a very, very neutral to these energies. And it's not, it's not to say we don't have access to them, like for sure. Like you're explaining mediumship energy. It's here. It feels good. It feels grounded for you. Found your path. Um, I just wanted to like dive so deeply into all of it. And yeah, it takes, it takes a little bit. Um, I used to do mediumship very similar to Tyler Henry, where I would bring the spirit into my space or go out of my body and meet the spirit. And then my body was like, and so people don't really know that they're doing that consciously until, you know, until you do it differently. And you're like, Oh, I, you know, halfway through my training, I'm like, we, we went up and out of the body for a second. And I was like, Oh, I live here. I was like, Oh fuck. I was like, so the last thing I'll say about this is the safest place for you to be ever is in your body. Yeah. Nothing can harm you when you're in your body. It's, it's true because you are taking up space and you have seniority of your body. That's the agreement we make when we come to this planet. Your body belongs to you. Mm-Hmm. And so my work is to get everything else out that's not yours. So you can actually enjoy your body and enjoy your experience And it's such a process, you know, because I, I feel like, so, you know, my mom died 12 years ago and, um. My dad died a year and a half ago, very traumatically. And, um, Karmically. And so he had to really experience in what I, this is where I'm not a big believer of karma on a daily life as like debts to pay, but sometimes there are things you have to go through for like things that experience. Right. And, and so that was really traumatic for us to actually witness, even though me from like a spiritual aspect. And when I was connecting, it was like, I know this is his path. He has to experience this because he has not. He has never been in his body, you know, as a high functional alcoholic that was dying of alcoholism. And he had to like be stripped away from that and be in the body. And there was so much suffering and so much pain that just overload, you know, it was just wild to see that at that level for me in the space that I am, but also like, Kind of deeply disturbing in the fact of you, you can't, you've got to, you cannot do that, Ray. Like you can't, you've got to end this. And so it went into this whole time frame where I was taking on Like it's never that anybody is bad. It's just, there's certain people that are good for your energy and certain people that fit better in other people's energies. And I was bringing in people that weren't necessarily the best for my energy, where I would feel drained after where I would feel exhausted after where, you know, it just wasn't, it just, and, and. And it was all out of lack and scarcity and fear. And I have to do this because I have to make money. I'm an entrepreneur. I'm, I'm self supportive. And, and I, I, you know, I, I put all this pressure on myself after my dad died, because it was just like, I'm, and I think in your session, you gave me so much of the very first one. It was your session when you said, um, Because he's not here anymore. You never got a chance. You know, this is like almost like reprint never can remember exactly what it was, but it was like, because he's not here anymore. It's like you, you went into overdrive because you never got the chance to show him what you've done. And my dad never really saw me, you know, emotionally. For who I am, there was no like seeing me. So I never really saw me because my mother didn't either. You know, that was just a bullshit manipulative. It was just crazy. But she, like your mom all around me, it's like, get out. Like, you're like, your mom's like, if I hear one more person, tell me that my mom is here. I'm just going to. I'm like incarnated into the body again, Laurie, and figure it out. I want to get out. And that was really eye opening for me and deeply revealing of just how deep some of this generational stuff, you know, moves. And there were, you had also opened up a topic that I'd never heard of. And, and I will circle back to mother wound, sister wound, which wound, all of that, because I want to speak to that at the depth that you do, but also the father wound. And so that was like, Oh, I just got chills around it because I didn't realize the depth of what he was in my body and my aura and how there was just like putting this and you might recall and you'll probably, you know, Maybe this will spark your memory. If not, I think you'll know where I'm going with this, but it was where you were saying, and I'd never heard this where he was like in like my womb space and took power from me and took light from me. And it's not that he was consciously sitting there doing this and, you know, it wasn't that, but it was just this like unconscious, like taking of space and do you want to share about that? I have so much to say about. Yeah. Yeah. That was I love the father room too because I'm a massive one and I also want to share that, you know, I say this with deep love for men, but most men on this, on this planet have been programmed by the patriarchal ways to plug into women's wombs. and use our creative life force energy in female bodies. We vibrate higher, faster, quicker, because we have to have the ability to get pregnant and to bring a spirit child. This is mediumship. This is why women are all mediums. If you have the ability to bring a spirit into your body, that's not yours. Like it's a spirit into your body. That is mediumship. That is channeling. You are channeling a baby in your body. I've never heard it like that. It's fucking amazing. That's pretty cool. Yeah. Now think about that energy that sits in our female space who literally creates limbs and does all of this, right? Men have been, this is my whole life's work. Like I'm writing a piece on the dominated womb. I think it's the most fascinating. Thing I'll learn about it for my whole life. Okay, so Men come in and plug into that creative energy and then manifest whatever they fucking want through our bodies I see this a lot with Daughters and fathers. I had this wound A very similar one to you. And I often attract clients with very similar wounds. And that's why I'm like, Oh, no, that one. Um, my father has never returned to me a financial monetary value. And I noticed how he was running some of his entrepreneurship things through my female space. I had to kick him out. I was like, fuck off. You know, he doesn't know he's doing this, but you know, that's how boys have been programmed to relate with women. So, you know, in my own personal relationship with my partner now, it's very weird. Because he has conscious tools that he doesn't plug into my womb and I'm almost like it almost confronts this like part of me that's like, wait, why? Why aren't you doing this? Why isn't there a charge? Right? This is weird. Why aren't you stealing from me? So it's this whole thing. But yes, to, from what you said, our fathers, Um, because men don't have access to that creative, creative energy, their energy flows in a very different way. Um, I have, I have to kick men out of my womb constantly. And, um, this is kind of where the father womb stems, right? The control and the dominance of the daughter's creative space to manifest what she wants, not what he wants for her. And I work, you know, most of my clients who've been in intense as well. Intensives with me. We work a lot around the father wound. And I recently, right before I went on my solo trip to Italy, my grandfather transitioned. So everything that we had discussed, I watched him go through from a distance because he had been so disembodied because he had given up. I watched him go through this cycle of pain, just this intense pain, You know, a situation that, you know, I chose not to be witness to, um, but to hold space from a distance. And, um, yeah, it's, it's fascinating to, I just, you know, I really feel for men. I really do. They're, they're, um, awakening right now is. It's brutal. Yeah. Yeah. It really is. I'm like, you guys have no idea. I mean, what, as women start to claim their wombs, they have nothing to plug into. So there's a void for them. They don't even know what to do. I'm like, exactly. Yeah. So it's like fun to watch, but it's also like, they're trying to figure out what masculinity is as we're owning femininity. It's, it's brutal. Yeah, it is. And also I feel like a lot about learning about their own work as an individual, not based on what they give, not based on what they fix, not based on what they do. It's like, they're having to really move through that. And you see it, you know, you can see it in different spaces and, and there's so much, I feel like more support is coming out for men, but there's still so many men that are just, I'm just so closed off. I can't, I can open up to my My partner. And that's about it. You know, if the partner's more feminine, you know, it's like, I can be there with that. But as far as like trusting, I think those, it's like, they can be around, they can bullshit. They can do the guy thing, but like that deep emotional, like, not that they have to be like us as women, but that, you know, and I feel like a lot of women are kind of like that too. I mean, Used to. I mean, I was like the relentless. I'm a three, six and human design. So I'm like the relentless. I'll try it again. I swear it's going to work this time. Please. Like, I'm just like, it'll happen. I promise. Like, it's like, uh, I am just like, yeah. And with women and in my life. It's just been such a pattern for me because one, I carried a lot of heavy masculine energy in that space, you know, in my world, it was like always doing, always basing. I'm a Capricorn moon. My worth was very tied to what I do. Very tied to the money in my bank account. Very tied to like how everything externally was, was going. And, and also, Approval, even though this is somewhat masculine, but I think a little bit more feminine, but approval of other people, you know, and I ran businesses and if my employees were upset with me, it would just riddle me to the ground. If people were like mean to me, it would just, it would just tear me apart, you know, and so it's, it, I feel like in the masculine realm is like this, these are, Pieces that, and I think actually now I'm hearing like my guides are like, no, it is masculine. The approval thing is masculine. And so I feel like I'm seeing a deep healing in their own masculine energy as well. That where it's like, for a while it was like, I'm going off feminine and just all create them all. But that's actually a little bit wounded, you know, when we really have to, like, we can't like shun the masculine. We want that, you know, and whatever energy it comes in, but it's. It's definitely for me knowing when, and it's been very eyeopening. And I've personally talked to my fiance about this. And he's like, well, that's interesting. But he's like, he thinks everything is like, he takes it with a grain of salt, but he's like, he's not, he loves what I do and everything. He loves me, but he's just like, I, that's cool. I don't know. You know, he's never going to judge, but he's like, I don't know. I'm not going to go there. You know, but it's something that I have become very conscious of when I can feel that. That like, I don't know, it's the, a weird sensation where I just feel like all of a sudden my power is being drained, something's going, and then it's, it's almost like we just have to have a conversation, then it just like, it just dismantles and goes away, and then it's good, and I feel it with my father quite often still, I've been really good, but the one thing that you told me that was so simple about it, I'm like, well, I Hey, well, how do I, I don't want this dude in my, what made sense to with where the healing was for any of you guys listening, you're probably like, what, what are you, what are you talking about? I was like really having some, some various plateaus and feeling like I could only do so much and comparing my My success to my dad and feeling like I wasn't having enough success and things like that. And it was almost like, well, remember he had help, but you didn't remember, you know, you're doing this on your own and look at what you do have and look at the happiness and the joy. And like, can you not, and it was like smothering things. So there's a lot of things coming into this. You guys like listening. And the whole point is that when this is in your body, the way that Alex, Alexandria. God, see, I know I botched it. Alex is fine. Alex is fine. Just try to say the name. It's always the, you know. Oh my god. And um, is that it creates these. Limitations in your life to where you can only go as far as that energy, energetic imprint allows it in this earth plane. And so one of the things that Alex had brought up about my mother is that she was in my space and putting a lot of sort of. restriction on my energy field of like, well, you, I couldn't have that. So she can't, I couldn't have that deep love. So I don't want her to have it. I couldn't create my own business, my own life. So she couldn't, I chased her dad and he never came, you know, all of this, like really deep codependence, sort of like a meshed energy. And I said to her, I said, but I don't understand because. When I connect with my mother, she's more in a higher, I feel like she's done a lot of spiritual healing. I wouldn't say she's high, high octave, but she's definitely like, and the way that you said it was, well, it's her energetic imprint in your body and on the earth plane. And so the reason why this stuff is so important and what rate, why I like really wanted Alex to come on here to share this is because these leave. Energetic, like barriers, limitation caps. So if you're feeling that in your life, in some capacity, whether it's love, money, business, whatever you want to experience, tapping into your body, like weight, you know, body image, all these things, it could go sexual intimacy. I mean, this can be anything really y'all. So it's like, this is really important stuff. This is why everything is energy. Everything, even our hormones, even our physical body, everything is energy and, you know, our physical complements. I personally believe, my belief is that our aura is the one projecting our physical body. So if you treat the aura, you treat the body and then, you know, you'll have the steps to align the body to the aura because you, you know, augment above and below mirrors. Um, I, I want us to talk about too, our mothers, right, we're, we're gestating in their elixirs, their, their cellular DNA for nine months, we are matching on a frequency level, their stories. And so if you want a quantum leap in your life, pass your mother's shit. You know, I wanted to quantum leap past my mother's mental health issues. I wanted to quantum belief past her, her life of not being able to manifest a partner. I wanted to quantum leap past,, a lot of different things. We must separate her cellular energy from yours. And this is where psychic surgery comes in because our mother is everywhere. It's our mother and it's our grandmother and it's the karma. And so that's why healing the mother line is my sole work. It's everything. It's always been everything. It started with mediumship because I wanted to, I miss my mom. I wanted to connect with her. And then it, then I started to realize, okay, you know, my mom and spirit is neutral. Most of us, we've crossed over. Our spirits are neutral. They're not vibrating here in the physical, but the physical imprints that they've left in our body or programming, we call it. So this is why I have a session. That's a deep programming. We deprogram your mom out of your body. And you know, it takes a little bit because it's your mother. It's not like, Oh, I met this guy. And like. Yeah. I was with him for a week. Can you just do program? Yeah, sure. But like, it's your mother. This is, this is a core, core foundation of your nurturing, um, your cellular DNA, all of it. Her stories live within you. Mm hmm. Um, and so if we can, and same with, same with her father, right? Like, Um, yeah. And so it's, it's fascinating to just kind of see again, um, if anybody has a hated moon, like the dominated womb, right? We become a mesh with our mother's pain and then we use our frequency to heal all of that and every, so if you always attract addicts or you attract all these like energies that are similar, it's because you've been healing this shit for her since you've been incarnated in her body. And so then we break those healing agreements. We break those karmic contracts. For me, I manifested literally my mother over and over and over again. And I was like, okay, I'm really done with this. So what do I need to do? And I started to realize, even when I moved into this apartment, my first time really, truly in full exaltedness, living alone, financially supporting myself after post divorce, I had anxiety for like three days. And I was like, I can't do this. I can't do this. What is this? And I was like, got a hello. I got an energy check was what we call it. And my, my, the person doing it was like, yeah, your mom's hanging out right here and telling you, cause she couldn't live alone in a luxurious place. She couldn't have it. So we call it having this. So my podcast is called high having this, the higher you have having this, the more that you're able to receive. And that's where people get messed up in manifestation. They don't have the havingness to actually have it. You know, my partner is the nicest man probably on earth. And for a while I was so deeply in resistance to him as a partner. I was like, you know, I couldn't have his love. I had to heal the parts of me that couldn't have it because my mom couldn't have it. She couldn't have it. My dad couldn't have it. My, you know, my grandparents loved each other deeply. So I'm lucky I have a little imprint of love. Um, but the love that we're creating together is so new and so unique that I'm like, like my programming loves to compete against it. And so that's why, you know, even when I see my, my clients, I'm like, Oh, it's your programming. It's programming. That's real. That's, that might be, that might be you. Yeah. Let's find you underneath it. Oh my gosh. Yeah. That is to me, one of the most fascinating things about it though, is just like knowing that there is that energetic imprint. And as you were, yes, you were talking and it's just a lot of people know my story. So it's just kind of like relaying it out and yeah, it's manifesting my mother again and again and feminine relationships and being bullied and being like, even though like I had friends, I had a lot of people that did see me through life, but it was like, I couldn't even acquaint to that because I was so deeply imprinted energetically that I couldn't even let that come in because it, I just wasn't even a match for it, you know? And so, and this, I really don't feel I cleared that pattern until after my dad died. And then it was like the last bit and I knew I was really working with it, but it was like the last bit of women. Yeah. That we're just kind of like, it's like, why are you doing this? Right. You know, like you don't need this. And it was just like, okay. And it was, it was just a certain group of friendships. Um, you know, and it's okay to just go, you know what? It's not for me. I choose not to be disrespected anymore. I choose not to be chosen anymore. I choose not to be in this experience where I feel less than, and I'm always chasing an energy. It's so subtle though. Right. Like, You have to be so consciously aware. And these, this, I mean, the stuff that you and I are talking about is stuff that we've like, been brewing and then, yeah, as you're talking to just, and then it wakes even more up in me and I, I, you know, so this does take a lot of different layers and gentleness, and it's not about like. ripping, you know, Alex and I have that Hades moon. So we've had very challenging. It sounds like your mother was a little bit more than a mesh side. Oh, my mother was an alcoholic and it was this codependent. I heal her. So she stays alive and yeah. Yeah. It was, it was quite violent to be honest. Yeah. And then like the instability and Mental instability and mental. It was wild. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And that was the same for me and the manipulation and then it just leads you to not trust yourself in a lot of ways. And I feel like I'm still in this process of, of. And people listening might be like, whatever, Ray, you trust yourself. And it's like, I do, I have a strong sense of self. And I feel like I always have, but there's a deeper layer. Of like, do I trust that I am supported? Do I trust that, that God, goddess divine energy universe is really here and going to hold me, you know, and that is another layer of trust that I feel like I've been moving through versus just like, do I trust my partner? Do I trust, you know, the people in my life? You know what I mean? So it's just, it's always like an evolution and. Gosh, and when you're talking, yeah, I could just like go on because it's like, it just wakes up so much in me around it. And it's just such a fascinating topic. And that leads into like the sister wound. If you want to talk about that from your perspective, because I feel like this kind of leads in like where I was talking about friendships and all this. It's like, okay. Yeah. It was perfect. Segway. Um, I have one point. I think that that's, but I just want to share is when you choose self love, you are resurrecting the inner mother. And this is like the rising matriarch. You're becoming who you need it. And I think that's part of the healing for us. And I think one of the things that we've learned as women who have been traumatized by our caregivers and, have had these challenging friendships,, is choosing yourself and, being the mother of saying if this was happening to my child, what would I do? I love that. Yeah. And I think that that's part of the healing is, is resurrecting our own inner mother. And as we resurrect that, we realize that that's fueled by the divine mother, the inner mother and the divine mother are. within each other, the inner father and the divine father within each other. And so when we can come into balance with these two energies, we're whole, we're complete. Um, because the parts of us who needed, well, I, once you come into balance and I feel like your shit comes up because then all the, all the parts that didn't get there, like, and I'm noticing this too, with my own, you know, It's like, I'm like, oh, there is a very intensely angry little inner child who's not even like, can't even explain things that is just violent right now. Why is this coming up when I'm in such a healthy place in my life? And it's like, oh, because I have the ability to mother her. And I'm like, fuck yeah. I was like, okay, it's a gift. It's not a, it's not a victim thing. It's not a, oh God. Like I suck. It's like, oh no, my mother's strong enough to hold her now. Yeah, that's pretty cool. Yeah. And it's like, it never goes away. You just don't do this and then just say, Oh, well, I'll never experienced that. Repressed anger, or, but I love this perspective that you just shared because it, I think it lets us know, like, actually you can experience it and there does actually become a point where you actually become empowered in it. This is, and so for us, it's like, okay, yeah, but it's, I just want to give, I love to give people like an empowered. Like here you go through this and you do get to a space where you come in such deep recognition or maybe that's the self love part of it. You know, the self love piece of it. I mean, self love is more than just taking a bath. You know, self love is showing up and witnessing your internal compass on a daily basis. You know, hour by hour, day by day, you know, and it's not like you just go into a bath and like, it's all gone, you know, it's, it's so much more than that. Oh, yeah. I mean, uh, choosing to be witness to some of my most heinous parts of self, that's, that's self love because I could look away. Yeah. You know, that's what being in the body is. It's having a pain and not looking away. Yeah. Yeah. It's not abandoning. And that's really the Hades moon, right? And that's why we're here to, you know, weave this medicine to the world. And some people don't want it. That's okay. I've learned, like, I've learned the Hades moon medicine is for the women who want to restore their matrilineal lines, who want to bring the magic and weave the magic back in, and who want to have, you know, capacity to live their lives, like however they want to do whatever they want freedom, really. But we can talk about the sister wound. Cause like, I could go, this is like, this is like my favorite conversation. I'm like, well, it's even, we could go deeper and deeper, deeper down this rabbit hole of like, but the sister wound again, to me, The sister wound, the witch wound, and the mother wound are these collective pain imprints and they're in this triangle formation. And they're all influencing each other. The first woman that we're in competition with, it's just, what's the sister wound? It's female competition energy. And it's a lot of different things, so we'll talk about this first, but it's female competition energy. And the first woman that we are in competition with is our mother. Hmm. We're in competition for dad's attention. We're in competition for the resources. We're in competition with her. We're in competition with her when we're floating in her body. We're in competition with her pain. Yeah. And nutrition. And like, even like her. Yeah. That's well. Her pain. You know, we're in competition. I hear so many women. I think globally like, Oh, when, when women have daughters, the daughters steal their beauty. What's that bullshit. There's enough beauty for all of us. Yeah. Pregnancy is a marathon. Like, just because you become pregnant, you have a daughter. You're going to be okay. Um, thank God I never had a daughter. I'm like, Oh no, your beauty's lost your daughter. That's female competition. Really sneaky. So the sister wound to me has always manifested, um, internally for me feeling like I don't belong. I've always had this. Um, belongingness wound, um, and that started in really early childhood for me with, you know, having a dad and a step mom who didn't want me there because they wanted their own life and having a mom who chose alcohol over me. There was a place I belonged in my fullness. And I think we see this a lot with women who are, are divine channels. They're like, well, I've experienced the shadow and everyone wants to look away. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, and that's where I feel like this belonging this room lives for me is is having such a deep rich awareness of my shadows and then Having this kind of traumatic hypervigilance to walk into a room and see everyone else's hmm And I'm like, no one's addressing this so I don't feel safe to be in a relationship and so many women mask their sensitivity They put on the red lipstick and they wear the cute outfit and they're like i'm masking i'm fine And then they're like no one likes me at the end of the day and it's like true I lived that for a long time. I had the louis vuittons. I painted the face. I did the shit. I was so fucking lonely I was so lonely because Sisterhood is a spiritual right It's a spiritual rite of passage. I'm studying this book. Part of what we're learning and mirroring each other and in our adolescence is having these deep sister, uh, blood sister relationships. And we didn't get them. So first of all, the step, the first part of sisterhood is grief. Okay. Grief and sisterhood are compounded. And that's hard because then you're like, well, me. It's me. You mean grief because of like not having that connection? Not having it. Yeah. Not receiving it. Not feeling that sense of belonging. And it's such a, yeah, totally. And so where does that come from if not Years and years and years of programming women, we start with, you know, the witch hunts in Germany, probably even before that. It's very root chakra and second chakra. The, the, the base three chakras to me, where I see the sister wound are for sure the root. And secondly, the solar plexus, it's all power. How can I have status? And so, um, we have these witch hunts that are happening and, you know, what's one of the core tenants of the witch hunts is if you gather with other women, you will be killed. That lives in our DNA. Anyone with European ancestry, your ancestors lived through that. Like, that's just like mind blowing to me. If you were alive, your ancestors lived at a time when you could be persecuted. For gathering with other women. Yeah. And so then we come into this female competition for resources. Female competition for survival. Mm hmm. I have to out my sister out because I have to save my children. These are very tough choices. These live in our body. This is psychic surgery shit. I pull this out a lot. Um, yeah, we're seeing a lot of this starting to come to the surface now because women are starting to want to connect. We're seeing more sister circles. Um, but the sister wound to me is very much equated with my mother's inability to empower me. And then feeling like I'm too much. very much. Um, and wanting to have deep, rich connections and women remaining surface level because that's where they're safe. And I don't want to shame anyone. I think we have to be where we're at. So then we go into that again, this is like rabbit hole for me, nervous system work every, like so many women are so dysregulated and out of body. How do you have a relationship with someone who's not in their body? You don't running around on like adrenal fatigue and all this stuff, which we were talking about earlier. I mean, it's just, yeah. Truly. How do you have a relationship with a woman who's not connected? Yeah. And so that's where I see. A lot of suffering right now because women what we do is we learn from each other. We teach each other We level each other up We we need our sisters, but it's become such a partner based world marriage and keeping the family together That's so important Sisterhood has been so shut out. It's opening to the very scary and real pain that your sister could betray you. I think that that's it for me. That's my truth. Um, and I've been through this. How do you, well, I mean, the question is how do you open your heart and raise your mother, your internal mother up to hold you even if women step in and out of your life? Yeah. It's a complicated thing. Well, it is, and it does hit so deeply and it does create like, I know as I'm, as I've, as I've been healing this um, and I've, I've been feeling this too. It's like even some relationships now it's like, Oh, are they, do they, can I reach out? Can I, Connect. Can I do this? Can I really trust that they're not going to, do they really see me? And then, and I feel like you'll, you'll be faced when you kind of get to sort of this place of awareness of like why it's happening, what it's almost like we get faced opportunities to stand in our truth. So some women will come in and it will feel like almost you are being cast out or judged and scrutinized. And I have black moon Lilith and cancer and the 10th. So it's. Yeah. It's, it's really like, it's like, so I was looking at yours, yours is in areas, which is totally that like sense of, yeah, just not being, yeah. And I, with a high Aquarius octave and you have Saturn and Aquarius conjunct your rising as well. So it's like, we've naturally come in with that. Deep sense of like, I don't belong, you know, and I, but I also feel like outside of astrology is, is that when we are intuitive as, as so many women are, I mean, all women are, it's just whether you allow yourself to access it or not, you know, or what is the depth of your ability or whatnot. And it's like, that is just up to your own choosing where you want to take it, you know, and what you want to do with it. And. And some people really are here to experience, you know, just life. And so they don't, you know, and it's like, no one's here to like, you know, not everyone is having an incarnation where they're dealing with their deepest karmas. You guys, like some people just want to rest and live in their body and deal with one. We call this in psychic training is so, um, these kinds of agreements operate in your field and they look like little picture kind of vibrating around like stories. Most people go through their life. They blow one picture. I, I blew like 45. Yeah. Yeah. Anybody has any high Scorpio energy, platonic. energy. There's a couple of water sign energy. You're, you're, you're, you're definitely here to move through even Saturn. I think even Uranus I found like that. Yeah. So it's like, there's so many different imprints to, to move with, but it's so interesting how I can see some women and they just hold so much trust. And I'm like, I want that, you know, I want to experience that, but it's something that like, it's, I don't know, it's going to happen and it is starting to happen and open up, but it's like, it's been such a process for me because of that. You know, when I've trusted all of a sudden I'm blindsided, you know, of that. And that's, and I feel like with the sisterhood thing comes a lot of comparison. I've personally had to move through that, like myself, not in a way. It's a different for me, a different than what we think of comparison. Mine's more of like, that can only happen for them. That could not happen for me. That will never happen for me or, you know, what are they doing that I'm not doing? I had to move through a lot of that energy and, and it wasn't there until this, like all this online business stuff started. Like I started eight years ago before everything blew up and COVID, and then it blows up in COVID. And then you have everybody and everybody in there. And now it's like. It's, I feel like there's some balance being brought back to it, but it is still very, it's very dominant. And so like, part of me is like, Oh, I, I wish like I have so much to give. And then there's people that are so superficial, fake, whatever, really good marketing, and they're just able to just pull in and it's like. And it's so interesting to me how that works and how it happens. And yet there's others of us that have so much more ability to either coach or mentor or help. And it's like, you're not seen because of this. And this is like, obviously taking it to modern times, right? Like beyond like, but to me, that's even like a sisterhood thing of, You know, there's so much shame in marketing space. There's so much like, you know, judgment out there of people showing up in their own space. And like, what is she doing? Why is she doing that? You know, it's like if you see it everywhere and it can be really dismantling if you're not in your own truth. It was for me for a long time. Yeah. Thank you for owning that. Thank you for owning that. Because part of healing anything is having our own awareness. I mean, I remember moving to Asheville and I was in this sister circle and it was like great for like three times. Then I was like, wait a minute, how does this woman have a house and a husband? And I started to feel that feeling and sensation of envy in my body. And part of some of us will be like, I'm not envious or I'm not jealous. I'm so I have a Scorpio placement. I am. So I'm just going to own that. If I don't own that, it will harm people. Right. Right. So I'm like, Oh no, this envy is coming up in me. I want this. And so again, When we're looking at the online space, we're looking at these competition energies based on survival. So if we can just have compassion for ourselves, for one, and be like, fuck, okay, like my money relies on this. This is like, this is survival stress. You know, it's sisterhood turning in on itself and saying there are limited resources. There's limited men. And there were, it was a truth for them. There was a limited man who didn't beat their wives who weren't shitheads. Like, you know, like whatever. There was a limited men. There was a limited high status where you could have ease in your life. You know, our bodies want ease. They do. They do. They do. My Sarah isn't Taurus. It's like ease. Snacks. Um, but truly, truly, like, again, we have to start acknowledging, um, our internal emotional space here. So like owning, just like you did, Yeah, I was envious because I didn't have it. Again, this is a having this issue. So then we work on our having this and we can have more. And we realized what's the mucky shit in the way, mom, dad, they all correlate with each other. Um, at least that's what I see in my own space. And even your sisters too. Yeah. My own sisters. I have been Okay, so I have a deep sister. She'll love me for sharing this because we have one of the most open. We have ruptured and repaired. And these are skills that every woman needs in her life. Can I rupture and repair and not beat myself up and also take responsibility for when I'm in pain? I'm the one, you know, or just honestly looking at yourself. That's why I share so openly because I want to normalize this. Like I'm not, I'm not, I'm sharing because I feel like so many women experience this and then they're just hiding it away in a closet. And it's just building all this rage, building all this resentment, building all this, like not belonging. And just like, yeah, that they're not as good as the other, or they're not enough or whatever that creates energetically. And It is like, it's something that really does need to be normalized, all of these emotions. And you could be so, unless you're like, I don't know, Buddha on a hill, you're going to experience envy again at some point in your life. You know, it's what you do with it and how you like show it's like, yeah. Buddha is so, is giving Aquarius as fuck to me. And I always have issues with Buddha. I have karma with Buddha. I actually literally had a lifetime with him. So I've been unraveling a few of those programmings because Buddha is teaching detachment and that's very important. But when you're in a female body, emotions are your currency. So if you're, if you are pushing them down, our bodies inform our spirit. If you can't say I'm jealous and that can't get to your spiritual field, then your body can't be like, Oh, let me, let me get a solution for you. Yeah. You get, you get like, this is why it's like so easy, but it's also really hard to feel that and to own that. So if you're listening, maybe just own one thing that you're jealous about with your friend. My, my dear sister, I told her I was so, I, she started this really cool thing. Okay. And, and just to mind you everybody in my life, and this was something that was like, just profound for me as I realized, Oh, all the women in my life, of course, have similar interests. We're going to do the same things because we all have similar, we all are basically Hades moon women, right? And so I'm like over here and she's just mirroring me this beautiful thing. She starts this amazing letter writing business where she like writes people channeled letters from like past loved ones. It's so fucking cool. It's the coolest idea. This is no, no, no. Just like my soul sister. I don't have any actual physical sisters. And I remember, and she loves this cause she's. Like we love to just be open and transparent with each other. And I sat with it and I couldn't respond to her in the time. Cause she's like, I'm so celebrating. I was like, cause my, my one goal in life is to, to publish my book, which I've been working on for so long. And just to like, to be making money for my writing. Like, that's really important to me. And I was so triggered. I was like, I could have ruptured the friendship. I could have been like, Oh, Or not vibrating, blah, blah, whatever the fuck the story. But I didn't. I sat with it. I said, I'm jealous. And guess what I did? I told her. I said, sweetheart, I'm so, so jealous because you are so fucking talented at this. And I feel like I'm not enough. Yeah. And she goes, I love you for saying that. Oh my gosh. Because yeah, like I'm so validated because she's like, I am brilliant. I'm like, you are. And I don't want that to take away. I'm just very jealous or envious of how easy it comes to you when I feel like I have to try at it. Right. Yeah. And so, yeah, like just acknowledging that is so freeing. It's so freeing because it's available to you. It is. If it's in your life, it's available to you. There is probably a shit ton of stories sitting on top of why can't do it, blah, blah, blah, but it's available to you. And we don't have to, our sisters are here to mirror us our good. I think so many, so many women with childhood trauma only get mirrored their bad. Yeah. Like, and I don't like good or bad, but only get mirrored the parts that need to heal. My sister's mirror me the beauty. And when you can finally start to have what I call clean mirrors in your life, Oh, it's wild. It's wild and profound. Like. Like women who actually channel light and not superficial light, because you have to have embodied darkness to have embodied lightness. So I'm starting to go on my embodied light journey. I'm such an, I'm a shadow worker through and through my whole life in the shadows. Love it. I love the darkness. I love the power of it, you know, but when are you going to invite. The light mirrors and my, you know, my friend just mirrored me the ability to freaking manifest money on writing. That's so cool. And I was like, Oh, I get to, you know, when you have energy tools, I get to clear my, what we call matches, blow, blow, blow, clear, clear, clear. And all of a sudden it's available to me too. So this is an energy problem. And that's why there's no solution. We don't just like go to therapy. It's it's energetic. It's what's in you alive that doesn't let you have this. Yeah. Yeah. That's so potent. And it is. It really is like I love the word the havingness because I think that describes it purpose like perfectly. It's like not being able to have it. Oh, I can't have it. I can't have it. And how many times I've probably run that. Not probably that I have run that through my, my mind and it's kind of like, I don't know the word coming to my, the forefront is the algorithm. This is the algorithm I've been operating behind. You know, it's programming really are your own algorithm. Like you get to repro deep, deep, whatever you want to call it. Decondition, you get to deconstruct, you reprogram, whatever you want to call it. And, and I, I think it's like the light energy. So I work with a lot of light frequency. But this is where for me, it's been deep trust in myself of like, this has come through me. And it's healing. It's so healing when, you know, we realize that there's enough space for all of us. But also that like we acknowledge how unique we are You know 30 people can go through energy healing training and we're all have a different modality It's so fucking cool to witness. My aura wants room to puff out and to be big. I want to be big. I want my sisters to be big. Fucking let's be big. I didn't come here to not be big. I am here for some fucking high caliber freedom and I decided after playing it safe, playing it safe, but in a way that was very healing because I had some beautiful friendships and dynamics that actually moved from that. I'm put in situations, it gets easier and I get more confident and I get less of that heart rate and less of that, like triggering feeling to where This is another opportunity. And you have now done this enough that you know, that you're not going to be abandoned. You're not going to be rejected. You're not going to be judged. And you can do it in a way, like, even if people do that, you can release them with respect before you have no respect left, you know? So it's, but that has been an ongoing thing. But again, it's like, what you've been through is all here for your purpose. It's all here for you to help other people. And it's, and that to me is the type of person I want to be around, whether they have the knowledge or awareness that we've been doing this for, this is our lifetime work, right? So this is a different layer and, and that's beautiful and perfect. Would sometimes I wish that I could just have some freedom of that. Absolutely. Cause it's not, it's not the easiest thing. It might seem super cool, but it's not actually the easiest thing to be. In this midst of constant like healing so that you can go out and like help other people, you know, and you sign up for that when you do this, if you're not doing that as a healer, then you're bypassing and, and you're really truly not to me. And this is a very direct opinion. It's like, you're doing a disservice. You're doing a service, you know, because to yourself, to yourself, I mean, I don't, I personally have gotten, you know, better at noticing women who are embodied in their wisdom. You know, the, the woman's wisdom teaches from the cellular, you know, we have a lot of guru energy that teaches from the crown, it's not. All the way into the body. So yeah, you know embody it and then teach from that and also then address the perfectionism because it's not going to be the perfect embodiment of it. I'll tell you that. And we are still fucking messy and kindergarten level at it. Um, Yeah, so I don't want it to hinder anyone from sharing. I want everyone's voice to be at the table to be honest. Could you imagine the the quantum transformation we'd have on this planet if if everyone aligned with what they what their magic was? I want you all. Like, come on, let's go. I'm ready. I'm ready for you all to step in. Um, there's space for us all, truly. And I really do believe that. And then part of me is like, is there? And I'm like, yes. And I have to like, you know, go back and forth, but there is, there is space for us all. And we're all learning how to respect each other and respect each other's space. And I kind of want to I think I saw, are you doing a, like psychic, psychic healing tools, energy healing, right? Of course. Okay. I want to share about that before we hop off, because one of the things I feel like I can share this. Sure. Okay. About something that came through our session. Okay. Sure. Um, I just wanted, so one of the things that you told me that was, and I, I kind of hit it earlier, but I didn't finish my sentence. Uh, Mercury and Aquarius. So it bounces around sometimes. It always comes back. It kind of bounces. Um, Anyways, one of the things that you told me, because I was like, how do I get my dad out of there? How do I get my mom out of there? I'm still laughing because I feel like there's like healing happening during this conversation. I'm like, oh for sure for sure I get like super giddy and um, anyways, I just I was like, oh, I don't how do I get him out there? Because like I Do things I just some traditional stuff doesn't resonate with me. So I'm like, I'm more nature and more earth. I have a Capricorn moon, even though I have most of my chart is air. It's like, there are components that just some things just don't resonate with me. Um, and so you were like, you just got to reach in and grab them and tell them to get the fuck out. And I was like, I was like, okay, I think I could do that, you know, and, and I've been doing that when I feel even people that. You know, where I've had to, like, stand in my power and you feel that psychic projection, you know, coming in and stuff and it's like, get the Or it's like reaching in, get out. And so that has been a phenomenal tool for me. And it's so simple because I can do it and it releases sort of this like, you know, reclamation of like some of that inner bitch, you know, and just giving myself to be that way. Like I've got my body, I've got me, you know? And so I think this, I'm sure there'll be tools. I think probably at more depth. Yes, there's definitely more neutral. You know, the, the thing about it is I was taught by men how to be psychic and now I'm being taught by women. It's a whole different arsenal, which has been, because in the male programs, they teach you how to turn down your feeling. And then the female programs, they teach you how to, how to have it on at the same time. And so for a long time I played good girls. I have such good girl programming. Please be good because I'm a manifester and if I'm bad that impacts fucking violent. And so for so long I would have like entities in my head and I'd be like, I have to love you to release you. So I'm just gonna, I was like, no, get the fuck out. Like the, I'm a power, I had Lilith on, you know, in the second, but also on the ascendant and I think the mean in fall, but get the fuck out. Like you are not welcome here. And now sometimes that doesn't work on particular energies because there's a lack of neutrality. So it's nuanced. Um, but yeah, I mean, if I see my mom, I just, I start gently, you know, uh, again, equine therapy, you always start with a gentle invitation and then you bring up the power, bring up the power, bring up the power and it's all awareness. And so for me, you know, if I have something in my aura, I'm like, Gently leave, or I just open a trap door and I pull'em out. I'm like, get out. Like this is my space. Own it. And so many women are taught not to own their rage and their anger and their power, right? Like, this is, this is part of it, so I'm so happy. You're like, no, get the fuck out. Like, you're not invited here. Um, get a little spicy. I was taught not to be, and I've had to deprogram it. I had to deprogram it a lot because men were teaching me who were afraid of rage. And I'm like, hmm, kindly GTFO of my space, you know, if something is, is not there, I just. Yeah. But yes, there are actual tools to, to learn how to do this in a way. There's multiple different processes to clean the aura, to, to get people out and, you know, we develop those. They're fun. Yeah. Yeah. Is that a course that you do live or is this a course before? This is the last time I'm actually going to do it live. So this is like a big deal. So it's going to become a self taught. prerequisite to a future program that I'm creating, which is going to be fucking amazing. Don't know what it is. I, well, it's called Audacity, but it's, it's Not ready yet. Maybe June. We'll see. Um, but this is my course. It's called a resourced. We, I've already done one round live. It is, um, energetic hygiene. So we're learning about the aura. We're learning about how to ground, how to ground the female space. It's all female, it's all women. Um, and we're learning how to clear out our aura, how to run energy, all of these really sacred tools to help us in our, you know, every day, which I use mostly every single day. Pretty much grounding cords, how to ground energy out. And so it involves a little bit of healing. And then we do a group healing at the end. It's quite lovely. Very cool. Yes. Well, I feel like we could go on for like hours. Yes. I'll have to have you back. Cause I think that especially after this energy in the next couple of months that's happening, there's just so much shifting and I don't know. I feel it in myself a lot. I feel like so much more of me coming back into my space, into my body. And just, and I think a lot of people are experiencing that. And, um, I'm just excited for where this year in particular is going to go. Um, And just where, like, I was like, things are shifting with Pluto and Aquarius and just all of it. It's just, yeah. And next year the nodes shift and it's just going to be, it's, that's going to be even different because now I feel like we're kind of getting through that Aries Libra energy where people are finding their autonomy and like they're finding, you know, Their space and relationships, they're finding their connection back with themselves versus like giving, giving, giving, giving and coming back into the body and having this nervous system awareness of like where we've been giving so much to everybody else and not like actually, you know, fueling our own bodies and fueling our own space. And so I think this year I just get a Feeling for the people that have been in the work and it has been just hard and a little heavy That there is I feel it and I usually I mean when I feel it, I know it's it's shifting and so I am like excited to have you back after like as this year kind of Yeah, yeah I mean, I've looked at the energy too for this year and for me, it starts to pick up around June. I'm like, ah, that's that eight year abundance that I have been working so hard to receive. Yeah. Well, I love that for you and I hope that opens up for you. I know. Yeah. I'm like, yeah, I'm in the, I'm in a really beautiful process around it. So I'm like, okay. You just got out of your Saturn return. So you are, you're, you're the Pluto transiting the 12th too. So yeah. Yeah. You're like, no, in the first house, you're like, thank God. I was like, Saturn, please, dear God, never go to my 12th house again. And then it's like Pluto 20 years. I said. Yeah. This is why I'm such a karmic healer, right? I'm so in that subconscious womb gestation point of contact healing is that 12th house Pluto. Yeah. And you just had it conjunct your Saturn as well. So that was heavy as all get out in your Saturn return for what it's worth. Mine's it's Pluto has been conjuncted. Out of my, well, depending on where you're at, but it's conjunct mercury and it's, yeah, south nodes on my natal Pluto. And I've had Uranus squares, Uranus square my moon, Uranus opposition. And I feel like, you know, I talk about it and I laugh about it at the same time, because I feel like when you're a soul that came here to do this, you will have more of these transits in this lifetime. I mean, some of these, if you live long enough, you're going to have a Uranus opposition. You're going to have a Saturn return. You're going to have double Saturn return if you, and hopefully we all live to make these big things. Let's do a second Saturn return. Saturn's my best friend. Second, I'm like, I'm going to like welcome him with like biscuits and shit. I'm like, get in here. What are we working on? By then you're gonna be like I'm gonna be like, I'm gonna be like, I healed this physical fucking body for you, so where are my treats? You're gonna, you're gonna, what is that, the, the, what is that, the, the crone, what is it, the old, the wise? Yeah, the crone, that's literally my energy. Yeah, the crone, yeah, you're gonna be I'm gonna be used to seeing that. Such an asshole as a Chrome, but like in the best way, I'm just going to be no bullshit, like witchcrafting the world. I love it. I love you so much. I love you. Thank you. This has been i'm so grateful for you Thank you so much for having me fun and I will drop all your deets in the show notes, but Alex is on instagram I am alexandria. kenyon. Is that the best place to connect with you? Yeah. Send me a DM. Um, or you can get on my reading waitlist. How I do it is you'll sign up for the waitlist and then it'll be like a month in advance. So get on April's now because I'm taking a rest month. I'm a manifestor of my energy ebbs. So you want to get on that? Cause there's like multiple people on it. So get on that ASAP. All right. I'm going to get on it. So yeah, go get on that. Pick your date. All right. Bye. Hey, untamed listeners, I am so appreciative that you took time out of your day to spend with me. 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